submissivelycurious: My Submissive Journey.......

For today's lesson I was thinking of talking about
Communication. I think we all know that communication
is very important in a relationship. There are so many other
things that are just as important for a relationship to work.

Every relationship ... be it in the BDSM lifestyle or in a
vanilla lifestyle without these things, Love, Honor, Trust,
Respect, Honesty, Communication, any relationship will fall.
But in the BDSM lifestyle relationship you also need Faith,
Obedience, Patience, Training, Submission, Commands,
Rules, Limits, Safe Words, and it should be all wrapped up
in the confines of Safe, Sane & Consensual.

There are parts here that I am still needing to work on..
I should never doubt anything my Sir ever says to me.
Because I know He would never lie to me. Doubt is a seed
of distrust, even though I Trust Him in everything. I need
remember not to let my emotions control me. I have Faith
in my Sir, He seems to know my head better than I do.
I'm still learning, learning to empty the mind of thoughts,
of what to expect, just let the mind go and follow His lead.
Don't ask questions, they seem to show I still doubt.

And I need to forget some of my old training from my ex
Dom's that showed me a life of abuse, a life of feeling
unworthy, a life of no open communication, a life of no love.
But it is all my own fault, until I stood up with the little strength
I mustard up to say.... STOP !! I'm not your doormat, and I
need to feel that I am wanted, loved, respected, desired,
worthy, that I am enough, ... STOP !!! Because I'm walking
away and taking all your rights, control, & my submission away
from you.

Today I have a Sir, that is everything to me. He is strong,
kind but firm, He knows that I am growing stronger and still
progressing, but I also still have so much to learn through Him.
I have this desire to please Him and to be a blessing and a
pleasure for Him and to Him. So now I just need to learn to
let go of the old and calm and empty my mind, and follow Him.

So I am going to leave it at this for now, I think we all
should know by now what should be in a relationship and
what should not be in a relationship.