R.I.P.

                                                            REST  IN  PEACE

                                                                   Sir Imran 

                                                     I did all that I could do !!!

                                                    

                                                              I loved you    ❤

                                 You will be missed by this submissive's heart and soul 

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My submissive plants

                              I find this strange that as my relationship with my Dominant ends

                             that one of my submissive plants had dried up and was withering

                             away. Then when I was on longer under His control the little plants

                            decided to sprout some new leaves and is growing again. I tenderly

                            moved it to get better sunlight and gave it some water and this is

                                                            it's results...............

My other plants are doing good and growing to be healthy 

plants and I enjoy all of them ......

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My Submissive Journey............

                                 My Journey 13th June ----- to 7th July, 2017

           Sorry for not always writing or posting something for my wall, it's just been 
      quite hard to focus on my submission............ submitting without a Dominant is
      one of the hardest parts of being a submissive. And it's hard to stay in my 
      submissive  mindset all the time, especially when you're missing your Dominant 
      so much.

              Sitting on the floor, beside Him is one of my greatest comforts, and when His fingers decide to run through my hair, that totally calms  me down, not only outwardly , but also, inwardly. It calms my spirit and mind that I can completely relax and solely concentrate on pleasing my Dominant...........But that calm feeling of His hands and fingers are gone and feel like I'm in a restless state all the time.











This last month I"m learning to be a submissive that
does not have a Dominant to guide me, teach me,
show me their desires and how He would like to be
pleasured by.......


 So I sort of wrote a new Mantra to help me try to stay
somewhat focused with my mind on the things submissive's
should....... practice over and over again all the different
kneeling positions and all the different standing positions too.
Practice only makes perfect. Then there is the art of lowering
gracefully into these positions and gracefully standing back up.



        I have decided to try and keep up with some of my learning and studying more of the
lifestyle and doing some research on certain topics. This past week has been more stressful for
me, with the death of my ex mother-in-law, she will be so very much missed by her devoted
daughter-in-law (me), as I had visited every week with her while she was in the medical care
home, with asking for the past three years to go home to be with the Lord and her partner.
Saturday she will laid to rest in her final resting place and with sorrowful and heartbroken
soul, I will say my final goodbye's with her. She is now in God's loving hands.

         Now comes the hardest part of my journey, to stay positive, even with the depression starting
 to settle in, and then try to  look forward to be able to serve another  Dominant and if that time
every comes. I don't know if there is another Dominant in my future submissive journey .......
He will have to find this sad and lonely submissive because I will not be looking for one 💋


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